Ticking Head

Five more days and it's gonna be exactly three years after the incident that changed the way people look at me. Not to forget the way they think about me too. Twenty five stitches on your left eye is no small thing. The pain I had to endure during the stitching procedure was no laughing matter. Yes, you may ask me what about the anaesthetic during the surgery. Well yea, the MO did inject some painkillers into my eye (yes he injected the painkiller INTO MY EYE!) and after like sixteen stitches, he told me that he can't inject any more of the painkillers. The reason? Inject more and my eyeball will pop. Literally! I asked him how many more stitches to go? He answered back saying only five small one to go. I said fine, go ahead. He started stitching my eye back but the five stitches was actually another nine to ten more. The last five stitches was no longer painful cause my skin got numb and I got tired of the pain since my anger started kicking in back. Don't ask why cause it's a long story. So long, I can't remember it's detail very well. =(

The pain was the short term effect but the scar is the long term effect of my action I'll have to live with the rest of my life. I thought the scar was all the side effect was but now I found out another long term side effect. Memory lost. Not a serious one. When I say not a serious one, I meant not the Ghajini type or Memento type. I start to forget minor stuffs. I forget stuff I say two seconds ago. Minor stuffs like that. That I can life with.

I thought the pain was gone and will not return. But again I was wrong. I sense my head ticking. Not migraine but headache. The feeling of heaviness all the time. The feeling of something ticking inside my head. These feelings aren't something you can enjoy. If it's pain, then I can deal with it but this is more like annoying. Irritating feeling. For the past month, it got worst. More often and more annoying. I decided to visit the doctor. She told me your stressed up. I? Stressed up? Lol. But for the safe side and to increase the hospital revenue, the advised me to take a CT scan. Fine. The radiology department guys gave me an appointment on the tenth of June. Great! Now I'll have to wait till June. But I guess it was for good since the CT scan would cost me some 350 bucks. *sigh*

They gave me some strong painkillers since Panadol wouldn't work for me. Now, I'll have to either change my workplace or change my working time. Great! My boss is gonna kill me! 

Midnight Epiphany

While sleeping under my room noisy fan, I got a sudden epiphany. An midnight epiphany. I found out I'm not a big fan of routine. Maybe that's why medical doctor was never my favourite profession though it's a very profitable thing to do. Financially and social status-ly ( I added the -ly so that it would rhyme with financially :P) profitable. Maybe that explains my illness. No wait. Let me rephrase that. Illness sounds so... Dying.
Maybe that explains my sickness. The constant flu, headache, hunger. Wait! I'm always hungry. Skip the hunger part and substitute with sleepless night. Maybe it's my current work stress. I'm not saying my job sucks. Well, it doesn't! Of all jobs I've done before, sales assistant cum kitchen planner is far most the best job ever! But it's the routine that's getting old. Not to forget the working hours and some pesty co-workers who got to pick on the tall Indian guy. *sigh*
I decided to quit my current job and search for a new one. Well most of them told me to get a new job first before quitting but I don't think I can take any more. It's too much stress for me mainly due to the working hours and the travelling. Maybe I need a vacation. Well let's see how things turn out. :)
Maybe I'll take a vacation next month. A short one maybe. Go somewhere. Somewhere cheap since I'm on budget. ;)

Maybe a day at the beach will do the trick.

DiGi WWWOW Awards

Saw this advertisement on TV the other day. The whole ad was filled with yellow colour and the word WWWOW! After watching the ad twice, baru I realize it was some kind of award show for online goers. Bloggers, Facebookers, Youtuber, blah blah blah. So masa boring I dropped by into the site. Memang WWWOW! Lol. Kinda fun looking too. So after looking at some of the entries, I thought to myself. Why not submit Random Guy's Confession in too? Wah lah! Here's my entry and if you wanna vote, vote here. =)

Does it look tilting a bit? If it does, I suppose it's optical illusion =P

Well it's not fair asking YOU to vote for me but if you do, I would be glad. But if you don't! Well, I wouldn't know if you didn't vote for me unless you told me. Right? =P

VOTE! VOTE! VOTE! =P

Call me a Hypocrite and I'll agree

If you were to walk up to me one day and say, 'Hey man! Meet my imaginary friend here!', I'm the kind of person who replies back with, 'Hey man! What's his name?', not the kind who replies with, 'Ooookay. Did you bumped your head somewhere?' Well maybe I will have thought that in my head but it will remain there in my head. I'll just play along till the very end. Well you can call me hypocrite or whatever else that has the same meaning with it, and I'll just agree though the agreeing part is not being hypocrite as I would sincerely agree since the world functions on such manner. I can't help it. Everyone loves a hypocrite. Everyone loves a little white lie. Nobody wants to hear the truth. Nobody wants to be around the honest guy. I'm just doing whatever it takes to survive by my own terms and by being a hypocrite, I get live by my own terms. Like or not, I am who I am. A Hypocrite.

3am and still wide awake

It's actually fifteen minutes pass three am and I'm still awake. Don't know why but yeah I'm awake. I guess my biology clock got messed up. Or maybe it's the running nose that's got me awake. Whatever it is, it's now leading to another thing. Hunger. Well, not really since I'm always hungry. Anyway, tomorrow's gonna be hell of a day for me. Since I gonna be the only person in my department from six pm right up to ten pm. Haha! Don't know what else to say. Except *gulp*

M.F.B (Missing From Blogging)

Two reasons I was missing from my blog for a some time.
One; I was kinda busy with work and all, so I couldn't find the time nor inspiration to blog.

Two; I was kinda pissed off when the post I was working on wasn't saved when my notebook battery got drained. >:(

But now, I found some inspiration to blog. Maybe I'll start it later tonight or tomorrow once I get the main picture. :)