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Let's just ignore the fact that I've been missing for almost a year. Well, not missing physically but yeah, missing from this.. place.

Many stuffs happened over the months that even I couldn't remember but one thing is for sure that, I've grown and mature. Well, sort of. At least physically.

I'm planning to maintain this look facial hair style for the rest of life. I mean, how many guys out there are able to roll up their mustache eh! Hahaha!

Used to have a pretty long hair at the back of head but decided that isn't my kind of style, though I'm still kinda tempted to grow it back. 

Class time past

Sometimes but not always, when the class gets boring, my imagination runs wild. So wild that I start drawing comics and stuff on my notes. All this just to keep myself awake in class. Being tall in the class is a terrible disadvantage since you can't freaking sleep or hide. *sigh*

Bought the notebook to jot down notes but instead its filled with drawings..

Blog to Journal

Was cleaning the book rack the other day when I bumped into a lost treasure. My old brand new journal. I think I bought it like ages ago but miss placed it somehow (well knowing me, that's what I usually do) and I'm thinking that it would be a good time to start writing a journal or something since that was the plan many years back. Besides, my handwriting has gone beyond the point of recognisable handwriting. So, this journal would be doing me two favours. One, repair my already damaged handwriting so the examiners wouldn't crack their head trying to figure out whether I've written in English or Swahili. Two, try keeping me offline. Well not really, but at least something to keep me doing stuff old school.

Well that's about it. So maybe, just maybe, I'll might put up some snapshots of the journal once I get started with it. And some occasional drop by over here. After all, first blog dies hard. Or was it first love? 

Change

I need to change. Fin.

Thieves get richer, Saints get shot. Be a hypocrite.

There's one thing in life that one must understand and that is one can never be nice to everyone. The world doesn't work that way. In fact, you can never be nice to everyone even if you try to. They wouldn't let you. Think about it. Could you think of anyone who has been nice to everyone? When I meant everyone, I really meant.. Ev-ery-one. Right. You can't. Because there aren't any and even if there is any, people just don't like them. They don't acknowledge such people. Everyone loves Gandhi for the actions he took to bring independence to India. But eventually he was assassinated. Why? He was trying to be nice to everyone. Trying to make all parties happy. Unfortunately, he couldn't. Made some enemies there and here aaand they he shot him. 

Having born and growing up as in Hindu, I was exposed to all type of Hindu epics. You know, the usual Ramayana and other tales. And you know one thing, even the gods aren't nice to everyone. They are only nice to those who worships them or respect them or at least to those who are nice to others all while being dictated by dharma (righteous). Thinking of it, if god were nice to those who worships them, then Ravan wouldn't have gotten killed for he is a lifelong devotee of Lord Shiva. But he was killed because he failed to go by the books or in this case, dharma. So being nice to god but not to others wouldn't safe you from a war and painful death. Same thing goes on in Mahabaratha, another Hindu mythology. All comes to one conclusion. If gods aren't nice to everyone, why should I, a mere mortal be? Simple. I don't. In Christianity, it says that god created man in his own image. So, why shouldn't we do what god would do? Be good to those who are good to you only if they go by the books. But then again, to the believers, Ramayana and Mahabaratha is a great epic mythology. For the non-believers, it's just another fairytale story. It's not about what is written. It's about the message in it.

Lets put it this way. If you're good to the good guys, the good guys would love you and maybe some of the bad guys might hate you. If you're good to the bad guys, the bad guys would love you and sure enough the good guys would ignore you and some if not most of the bad guys would hate you. After all, they are the bad guys. Who you are counts but what you do that matters. 

Think about it. We evolved into what we are today from a primate. We are build to adapt.
So adapt.
Live as a hypocrite. Die as a saint.
If not a saint, let it be a human.

Summer Break

Summer break. That's what the UK guys gave us students here in Malaysia before we move on to the second year. I guess they forgot that it's summer here all year round. Oh well, four months of summer break is quite fun and boring in the same time. One month just flew by with me doing nothing but driving up and down the peninsular. Fun but tiring. And I'm still broke as hell. Not a single cent in the my hand. Or pocket. Well, not literally. Need to find a job. Got a few in my mind. The money is kinda good. 10 bucks an hour. Big money. Besides, I got two and an half years experience on that field. Sales. Not just any type of sales, it's kitchen sales! They even have an opening for kitchen planners and they would be thrilled to know that I'm from IKEA. =D
But the hours would be crappy. Pro's and con's. The other job would be in Maxis. I heard the pay is good too and the working hours is awesome. Office hours. =D But that would be a three month thing. No weekend jobs. No weekday study, weekend work stunts. So, I'll need to find a second job for that. Again, pro's and con's. So I got only this weekend to make up my mind. Aino Living or Maxis. I might as well just join the former. Or what if I join them both? Maxis on the weekdays and Aino on the weekends?? Nah! I'm just being too greedy. But that again.. YOLO! =P

What a summer break this is! =/

My bad

I shouldn't have asked. I shouldn't have said. I shouldn't have put you in a difficult space. I should have take it and go the first time you said it. Now, I just made it bad for you and for me, and everything else. Things would get better as time goes by. But this would forever stay in our mind, very much alive. I'm sorry and apologise for what I said. Never that I thought, I would be so inconsiderate. My bad. my bad, it's obviously my bad. I should have stop ahead with the time I had. Never mind you said but I know you're offended inside. I'll make it to you, I promise. You know I will one day. =)

I

I was,
A jockey with no horse,
A lion with no mane,
A fighter with no cause,
The man with no aim.

I am,
A giant with no might,
A gladiator with no glory,
A sun with no light,
The man with no sorry.

I will be,
A king with no knight,
A hunter with no cage,
A day with no night,
The man with no rage.

Anonymous

It's easy to give opinions or say things or just be childish behind a mask. A mask called 'Anonymous'. If you got something to say, just say it out. But not behind a mask. Compliment or degrading comments let it be said without someone being an anonymous. It's more frustrating than the comment itself. It's not like I'm gonna hunt you down and make you pay for saying all those degrading childish stuffs. It's just I wanna know who I unintentionally offended. But then again, it seems that your comments don't make sense at all. Nothing! Copycat?  Annoying? Hurtful? Man! Since when did I been hurtful and annoying to others? Well, if I ever did, then sorry. It was unintentional. =/
Copycat?? The only thing I copy is my assignments and lab reports. And that too have to be altered to avoid plagiarism. So, technically I don't copy. I 'refer'. So, at what point was I a copycat? Please get the facts right or at least check where are you posting you comments. I guess it's just a case of mistaken identity or blog. So all is forgiven and forgotten.

p.s: the next time you wanna post a comment, try doing it without being an anonymous. thanks.

All good things must come to an end

Like I said before, all good things must come to an end. And so does my employment in IKEA. Just handed in all my stuffs to the HR department. Feels kinda odd. I know it's just a part time job but yet it feels very odd. A feeling like no other that can't be explained. After all, I've been a 'loyal' employee for the past 2 1/1 years. The co-worker are more like a family to me. =/

Oh well. I'll live. Besides, I left in style which means I'm always welcome back to the family. =D
I might return back. It's been a great experience working there. Met famous peoples, funny people, odd people, all type of people. I actually got a chance to understand different people's personalities. All this by just planning a kitchen for them. =)

Very well then, now I got a different mission to carry out. A mission to find a different employment for I need money for my pocket and utility bills. Utility bills as in car monthly payment and fuel. The hunt for job begins now.

In the class feeling bored, waiting for next class. Got the last examination marks, some of it. Nothing to be proud nor ashamed of. Did quite well, so far. Now I got a new thing to change. My phone. Keep dying on me. I guess it just reached it retirement age. =/
Just realized something. Whenever I have something important to do which involved spending money, I'm always out of money. This time is no different. I'm totally out of money. Reason? I recent streak of absences from employment. Thus, no pay. Don't ask me why cause I wouldn't be able to answer. Now, I'll need to find a new job. Not because they fired me or something because... I don't want to give the burden or pleasure of doing so. =P
A man leaves when the times come. And when he leaves, he leaves in style. =)
And that's exactly what I'm gonna do.

The next dilemma would be finding a new employment closer to home. And if possible, something different. So let's hope for the best. =)

Done

Final done. So is the year. Well, not yet but it's about to. Pre-final stress was countered with the post-final party. Alcohol involved. Got a lil tipsy but I survived the ride back home. =D
Another thing coming to an end would my employment in IKEA. Long story short, they needed more full timer co-workers. =/
I can't remember my 2011 new year resolutions nor was it saved anywhere. So... yeah.
One thing for sure was I changed. Couldn't say was it for better or worst but yeah I changed. Cheers to that!
Well, need to get back to sleep now. My last six days in IKEA starts tomorrow. =(
I'm gonna miss IKEA.

Off With A Bad Start

I just started to do a little something for myself and people already don't like what they see. It seems people don't like me changing. For once, I did something for my very self and it turned out to a big crime for some people. I just don't understand them. Feel so alienated. Then again, it wouldn't be fun if everything turned out the way I expect it to be right? Where would the fun be? Besides, I'm used to be on the other side of luck. =)

Change

I need to change. Change to totally different person. I first need to be a little bit more selfish. Start thinking for myself first. Be an hypocrite for real. Let 1st of November 2011 be a dawn for a new self. I seriously need to change. Need to get back to work. Need to spend more time studying. Need to spend less time on the internet doing unnecessary things. Need to work out and myself in shape. So many things to do. But worry not, I've got all the time I need. I'll just take it one at a time. After all, I need to change. 

Next month I'm going back to school and looking back how far I've came before actually starting my degree got me thinking. I've actually wasted three precious years of my life. Yeah, you might go on saying it's all experience, nothing is wasted and stuff like that but personally? I wasted. A lot. Been in and out of colleges for the past one and an half year. Met a lot of peoples. Most of them became good friends. Some of them became kinda of a family. Actually, I got like five people from college calling me their big brother and two of them are girls. Haha! Been working part time in IKEA for two years. Well that is something I would say an experience. Started to earn my very own money. Kinda understand the true value of it. Though sometime I overspend it. It's a whole different world the in the big blue box. Those people in my department are like my second family. Not intermediate family but just family. Had an department outing last Friday. It's the first one I'm attending after two years working in IKEA. People are surely different when they are not wearing their yellow uniform. I spend most of my time in IKEA planning kitchen for the many people. All type of people. Old, young, foreigner, locals, white, black, male, female, family, couple or single. Different people, different taste but one common thing. They want their kitchen to look good but burn a hole in their pocket. I learn to brush my communication and socialize skills by meeting these people. Sometimes, I'm afraid I would like have killed their kitchen dream especially when they say they would think about it and come back later. But when their really do, it feels good. They got like people from all over Malaysia working in IKEA. Different people all wearing the common thing. The bright yellow uniform. Sitting down with one co worker talking about how he got into IKEA got him talking about his time in the army and some accident he had while doing some military exercise which injured the nerves on his left arm. The other day, another yellow friend was talking about his life while sipping coffee during break time. I don't know why but people always tend to open up their story to me. Sometimes thing I say unintentionally ends up motivating them and they would just smile. But no one seems to listen what I've got to say. I suppose its the law of the universe. One can only take or give at one given time. If I listen to one's problem then I shall not speak to one about my problem. But then again, I'm not the type who goes around talking about my problem. After all, it's my problem. Just noticed I've been writing everything in one paragraph. I'm 22 years 2 months 2 weeks old at the time I'm writing this. What a coincidence. Now I'm on a 16 days off from work. So much to say but too much to write. I guess I now know whats causing my headaches. Too much thinking. Can't help it. It's on auto pilot. I need to stop thinking too much. 

people can be so unpredictable at times and very deceiving too. *sigh*

Fatty, My Sister

Being the youngest lad in the family, I often get pampered around especially from my sister aka fatty. Fatty would be the nickname me and brother use to call her which derives from.. Well you know. =P

She is around nine years elder than me but she would treat me as if I'm a couple of years younger. But at times, she treats me like a baby. Either way, she pampers me to the max. I can actually share with her just about anything. She is someone I could really rely on. Well not really rely on since at times she breaks my secret to mom as an act of revenge for something I did which was an revenge for what she did. Like them people say, what goes around comes around. *sigh*

Fatty is a bit kind of an extremist. Two years back, I would get tensed up whenever she drives because she drives so bad you would have second thoughts on the ability of the instructor that trained to train other new capable drivers in the future. But now, she dares to hit lights and argue back, drive 120 where you should go 80 and other dangerous acts. Haha! Before she would literally drives 50 where you should go 80. She would spend hours upon hours shopping and end buying something that she either would only use once which would later hang in her closet to be later found by mom and get nag at or end up buying something that she already has in an other color or size. I hate going shopping with her. If the plan was to go for a movie, we would end up in ten different stores before actually reaching our intended destination. She is the one who always supports whatever I do. She can be my best friend or my worst enemy. Like I said, she is kind of an extremist.

What ever it is, whenever birthday comes, I always get something new. Whatever that she plans to give me, it wouldn't be cheap. Be it a dinner or shirt. She choose something extravagant. Tony Roma's, Bubba Gump, Soda, Pandini, Alba, Diamonds & Platinum, and the list keeps going on and on. Well, it wouldn't be fair if all the credits goes to my sis, since the one that pays most of the bill is my brother in law. =P Well I sure owe them big time. =D

Well I'm sure glad I got a sister like her cos she is indeed one heck of sister!

 p.s: Well Fatty if you were expecting me to say something really really nice about you, then sorry! That would sound soooo fake. Well it wouldn't sound fake, it would be fake. ;)

*Awkward Silence*

Each time we have a conversation, somehow things ends up like this...

pure awkwardness 

Midnight Epiphany

While sleeping under my room noisy fan, I got a sudden epiphany. An midnight epiphany. I found out I'm not a big fan of routine. Maybe that's why medical doctor was never my favourite profession though it's a very profitable thing to do. Financially and social status-ly ( I added the -ly so that it would rhyme with financially :P) profitable. Maybe that explains my illness. No wait. Let me rephrase that. Illness sounds so... Dying.
Maybe that explains my sickness. The constant flu, headache, hunger. Wait! I'm always hungry. Skip the hunger part and substitute with sleepless night. Maybe it's my current work stress. I'm not saying my job sucks. Well, it doesn't! Of all jobs I've done before, sales assistant cum kitchen planner is far most the best job ever! But it's the routine that's getting old. Not to forget the working hours and some pesty co-workers who got to pick on the tall Indian guy. *sigh*
I decided to quit my current job and search for a new one. Well most of them told me to get a new job first before quitting but I don't think I can take any more. It's too much stress for me mainly due to the working hours and the travelling. Maybe I need a vacation. Well let's see how things turn out. :)
Maybe I'll take a vacation next month. A short one maybe. Go somewhere. Somewhere cheap since I'm on budget. ;)

Maybe a day at the beach will do the trick.

DiGi WWWOW Awards

Saw this advertisement on TV the other day. The whole ad was filled with yellow colour and the word WWWOW! After watching the ad twice, baru I realize it was some kind of award show for online goers. Bloggers, Facebookers, Youtuber, blah blah blah. So masa boring I dropped by into the site. Memang WWWOW! Lol. Kinda fun looking too. So after looking at some of the entries, I thought to myself. Why not submit Random Guy's Confession in too? Wah lah! Here's my entry and if you wanna vote, vote here. =)

Does it look tilting a bit? If it does, I suppose it's optical illusion =P

Well it's not fair asking YOU to vote for me but if you do, I would be glad. But if you don't! Well, I wouldn't know if you didn't vote for me unless you told me. Right? =P

VOTE! VOTE! VOTE! =P